Motherhood

This past week I have been feeling really overwhelmed and discouraged. I have had a hard week as a mother! Lots of things happening and in the grand scheme of things they are really not a big deal, but my nerves are fried and I have just been feeling a lot of inadequacy feelings I guess you could say. Anyway I just read this quote and it made me feel better and put things into perceptive for me. I know that this is a divine calling in life and I am so grateful to be able to have the opportunity to have two beautiful and loving daughters and a wonderful husband and father to them. I really am lucky, and when I am having a bad day I am trying to remember that! Small children can be challenging, but I am learning that it is all worth it and one day I will be so grateful that I made the effort to teach them and help them to be better people! They really do make my life complete and despite the crazy moments in life, I wouldn't trade it for a thing!

Elder Jeffrey R. Holland on motherhood:

“When you have come to the Lord in meekness and lowliness of heart and, as one mother said, “pounded on the doors of heaven to ask for, to plead for, to demand guidance and wisdom and help for this wondrous task,” that door is thrown open to provide you the influence and the help of all eternity. Claim the promises of the Savior of the world. Ask for the healing balm of the Atonement for whatever may be troubling you or your children. Know that in faith things will be made right in spite of you, or more correctly, because of you.

You can’t possibly do this alone, but you do have help. The Master of Heaven and Earth is there to bless you—He who resolutely goes after the lost sheep, sweeps thoroughly to find the lost coin, waits everlastingly for the return of the prodigal son. Yours is the work of salvation, and therefore you will be magnified, compensated, made more than you are and better than you have ever been as you try to make honest effort, however feeble you may sometimes feel that to be.” Jeffrey R. Holland, “‘Because She Is a Mother’,” Ensign, May 1997, 35

These are the special moments I cherish:

When the lady told her to put her arms up as people usually do on roller coasters, she obeyed and put one arm up and went around and around and around that way.... the whole time holding tight with the other hand on the bar.

Playing the piano with her sister.

Getting and adjustment with "Uncle Judy" she has always called her Doctor Judy before correctly, but somehow on the last visit repeatedly called her "uncle Judy" she is so grown up getting adjusted on that bed by herself!

Lunch with Daddy at the mall, they look like they are having a good father daughter conversation here!

Other memories I love:
-when Jadyn does things that Heidi thinks are really funny and she laughs a belly laugh at her and Jadyn loves the attention so much that she does it over and over... and it never gets old.
-when Jadyn praises Heidi for walking "Look mom, Heidi is walking!" (said as if she has just won the lottery)
-story time in the evening before bed when Jadyn wants to read her own story by herself and we have to read a different book beside her as instructed, and trying to read to Heidi why she crawls all over the place or grabs the book away or turns the page before I get a chance to read it.
-when Jadyn gets a sliver and screams so loudly for me to get it out and depends on me so much to make the owie feel better and then when it is the big hug of thanks I get.
-when Heidi screams so loudly in the car because she hates her car seat and then Jadyn screams back at her to be quiet, and then Heidi thinks that is funny that she yells back and then they make a game back and forth of who can yell the loudest. (If I don't laugh at this one then I end up crying)
-when Heidi says "Jadyn" (only I can understand this one)

Ok I feel better now, I love this life!!!